i don't like how i get affected so easily by my emotions when i'm bowling.  for one, i spoil the mood around me.  second, i'm being an utter ass when i bowl badly.  at least that's how i feel.  i don't know how others perceive me when i bowl badly but i just think i'm not treating the team the way i should treat the team.

i mean, it's hard to put emotions aside.  i want to bowl well because i want to make the team.  fair enough.  but i have to learn to put this aside and just bowl, and if the team would have a better shot at performing without me in it, then i should allow myself not to be in the team for the team to perform better.  still it's hard to put interests aside.

and when i get frustrated every shot just seems to go wrong.

i need to learn to bowl like i bowl in training and enjoy my bowling and not get affected by scores.