well i actually planned on living a hermit's life slacking away my time during this period but that's seriously a waste of time.  hmm the end of promos came PW and the end of PW came this immeasurable relief.  i know it will not beat the relief i will feel next year or the relief the o level people are feeling but it was great.  just feeling for that single instant that there was nothing left to worry in the world.  yes, deluding yourself but at least i felt good.

i was thinking about getting a job, but considering that i'm flying off this saturday, no company would accept me in.  am getting an 8 buck an hour job at OCBC though, but it's just one day.  can't really afford to commit to anything long term cause i have work to do.  one pile of clothes in church that needs sorting, term paper that i have to rush out, copious amounts of homework bombarding me.  just doesn't feel like a holiday with all this work.  yeah next year is the A levels and all that and we do have to study, but it's just bullshit that i have to bring homework with me to New Zealand instead of enjoying that holiday i should be getting.  i wouldn't exactly say i deserve it cause my grades do not reflect that, but still, it's stupid.

and the fact that i am sick is not helping me at all.  not fun spending your day at the Reference Library in the National Library pouring through books on the Japanese Occupation.  fun though reading about what some Japanese authors have to say about the occupation.  wouldn't say what i saw, but some are quite well, yeah.  so somehow i did manage to get some books here and there and photocopy some material that i hope would be useful in my quest to complete a term paper in 4 days.  somehow i have not learnt about last minute work and it's drastic side effects.  and did i mention i was sick?

i feel worse now cause i went for my jab and the doc says there's a chance of getting a fever.  so in fact, i feel kinda dizzy.  my last sentence was corrected about 3 times cause of typo errors due to my dizziness.

hmmm...  i need to sleep.  this has been utterly incoherent rambling.