i'm telling you, this feeling i have is absolutely, well.  mixed.  for one i'm extremely, extremely happy cause i am like halfway through promos already!  2.5 subjects down, 2.5 more to go.  if you were actually wondering how i can have .5 subjects, it's cause my history is split into two papers and i did one today so yes.

but anyway.  i'll start with yesterday hmm?

GP was seemingly easy.  i'd probably take it for granted that i have the 5 vocabs correct, barring any unforseen circumstances.  i mean please, the hardest word there for me was 'propensity' which obviously means tendency and i know that without a shadow of doubt.  so yes.  but the essay was a little unnerving, cause i don't really know how well i'd do.  but i'd dare say GP is one of, if not my best subjects.  so i'd be expecting something good, but i don't really know.  cause the last time i thought i did well for a subject (Chem block test), i got an S.  so i'm really crossing my fingers for this GP paper.  hopefully i get my projected mark.

now today was crazy.  who in the world thought of cramming econs and history on the same day? now i'm not one for cursing the school admin for fear or reprisals but that was one hell of a horrible decision.  for one, econs and history are two subjects where you have to remember a lot, and i mean a lot, of notes.

okay visualise.  my history notes (only international history) comprise of 3 topics, with each topic having one to two sub-topics on its own.  notes are about 80 pages with a whole gamut of evidence to remember.  and econs?  let's just say i don't really like the subject anyway.  so notes are a chore.

now imagine me yesterday, mugging away for two content based subjects.  how exhilarating.  i must say that yesterday was a nightmare.  i mugged the whole afternoon away and by the time it reached 6pm i felt like a walking zombie who have some problems breathing.  and it's the first time i mugged till i felt this way.

now imagine today.  bad?  not really.

thank God that i remembered (almost) everything.  but the writing part was a little bit crazy. hmm try writing one econs DRQ, two econs essays after that, then another two history essays.  now it was a bit funny cause by the time i finished the history paper, i could have sworn i lost cognitive functions in my right arm.  i couldn't even tie my papers together cause my hand was shaking like i contracted the latest stage of parkinsons.  and it probably took 5 full minutes for me (and probably the rest of the people taking history) to finish tying the papers together.  not fun.  and my hand still hurts till now, which raises the question of how i will be doing my chem paper tomorrow.

but i guess both econs and history were managable, which worries me again cause everytime i think so i screw up.  but i really did find it so.  sigh.

now chem is kinda full of hopes but they're hopes only.  i calculated that i needed more than 70% for me to get A overall for chem.  and considering my dismal grades, that is just not going to happen.  i guess.  so unless i go back to mugging, i will most certainly not go well.  but it's not really just mugging i guess.  need to apply stuff correctly as well.

so yes there goes my incessant rambling for the day.  look forward, or hope not to have, more of it tomorrow.