just screams out "million dollar question" doesn't it?  lets see.  finished my chem and econs syllabus for the year.  haven't committed to memory word for word, but then again, i don't have the intention to remember word for word.  it's just plain impossible.  i did some math TYS cause simply, you cannot study for math.  i salute anyone who can actually study for math.  math is practice.  not studying, you no life SMTP students.

well, i've also read through 2/3 of my international history notes.

but what disturbs me is that i am actually seemingly on track.  so if i am on track and studying, i should not really fail right?  but there's that stupid sinking feeling i always get.  it's like you studied, but you just think you're not gonna do well.

why like that?

i want to regain my secondary school form.  it's been more than ten months since i actually felt that a test was easy, and its been so long since i could ace tests.  i'm aiming to take H3 next year, but i just can't seem to get there.  and the worse thing is that i've been studying these past few days but i just keep having a bad feeling about my promos.

hate this feeling, and i had better start studying again.