oh yes of course it was National Day yesterday. i must blog about the wonders of our nation. no sarcasm here.
well it was the National Day celebrations in school two days ago. and i must say that i succumbed to the warm feeling and i just felt like i actually loved my country. wait. i do love my country so what am i actually saying? yes i love my country, and that is why i say those things anyway. i want change for the better! so i love Singapore. i really, really do. sincerely.
but yes, Singapore is 43 years old. that's probably the age when i earn my 10th billion, buy my 23rd Ferrari and 78th Lamborghini, as well as my 50th multi-million dollar house.
but i digress. that's kinda young for a nation. 43. of course it's not like Montenegro, which is only 2 years old. and i digress again.
oh well.
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after reading Xian's blog, i realise how much i care about my grades. Xian had the same marks as me for chem. yet, he felt sad while i didn't feel a thing. i didn't feel that i did badly, i just felt nothing. i don't know, but that disturbs me, how little i care. i guess i really need to pick up my studying. i can't keep on having these substandard grades when i know that i really can do much better than i'm doing now.
sigh...
but today kinda made me a little happier. been awhile since i last had a good jamming session with the people. i mean, it wasn't actually a jamming session cause all we were doing was me playing random beats while they were playing random D, E chords while singing the Campfire Song Song and adding in random stuff like Your Mother So Fat. but we were all just so high and for that 1 plus hour, we totally forgot about our school and all the stuff we had to do. just jumping around, playing music like everything just didn't matter.
i just think about what school has done to us. what's on our mind every single day is just studying and all that. doing our PW, doing our homework, studying for promos and all that. it's just been such a long time since i managed to hang our with my friends, play trash music, get high while playing trash music and singing random stuff. it's just so fun, just laughing at all that crap that we can make up with two random chords and stupid drum beats.
yet tomorrow i'm gonna go back to studying. it's 6 weeks to promos and i have to study. i have to study to promote. i have to study for that piece of paper i'm gonna get in 1 year. don't like it but i have to. gonna be hard so i'm gonna have to have a lot of perseverance for this.
posted @ 8:07 PM |