well youth retreat has just ended and it has been a rather good time. being camp comm was a good experience, and it is really a good way to just see how God can work.
well the weather has never been good these few days. raining everyday. it has always been faith and trusting in God to provide, and it has been the same thing for this camp, and as usual God is always faithful. aptly, our camp verse, 1 Chronicles 7.14 says that "if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land." and yeah, indeed even as the camp comm just gathered for a session of prayer before the camp started, as we just turned to Him for guidance, it was evident in the way He worked throughout the camp, giving us dry weather when we needed it like for the afternoon games, and giving us rain to help us rush back to camp so that we would not be behind time. it's just amazing to see the little ways that God provides to make the camp a success.
the camp has also been a time of refreshing.
i mean the theme chosen was also good and it was a good time for God to just speak to me. i must confess that my walk with God had been erratic. just these ups and downs. mountains and valleys. but for the past few months my life had just been spent in the valleys just crying out to Him for help, just feeling so far away from Him. in a way the theme spoke to me. it really just cut my heart. nothing occurs by coincidence and all things happen because God allows it to happen. so the theme was not the camp comm's choice but rather it was God's choice. and He spoke to me through the theme. just telling me to spend more time with Him in prayer and meditation, telling me to trust all that i have to Him, to let Him guide me in whatever way He wants me to go. just to trust in Him with all my heart and soul and lean not on my own understanding, in all my ways acknowledge Him, and He has promised to make my path straight. and also to confess all sins to Him so that i can be righteous, blameless and pure before Him. to confess any sin before i come to His throne to worship. all these are small things that all stated in the Bible. all these have been emphasised by the Pastor many, many times. we all know what we have to do, but many times we just don't live the life that would please God.
and that is why i thank Him. the theme just brought me back, back to the time i accepted Him as my Lord and Saviour and let me know the fundamentals of my faith so that i can just strengthen my walk with Him. it lifted me up when i needed help. it is said in His word that as we come to Him humbly in prayer and repentance that He will lift us up. He will not condemn us but He will uplift us. and such is the confidence that we have in our Lord and Saviour, and what a promise.
you know yesterday i was having rehearsal, and this certain adult made a remark that made me angry. really angry and this was in the midst of rehearsal. and, well, i just thought to myself that he didn't know anything about worship and about drums so who is he to condemn. and i was angry. i just really hated him, and... and i said some nasty things. said it to Joel and Javis. and immediately i knew that i just couldn't play. because the song that we were playing was "Give Us Clean Hands" and once again it was God speaking, telling me to take some time off because i really couldn't serve Him when i did not have the right heart to.
this week has just been great, God speaking to me in so many ways, just renewing my soul and spirit, guiding me when i really needed Him, telling me what to do with my life.
just really want to praise His name.
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