you know i was kinda thinking about what my ambition is, and what i wanna be when i grow up. whenever people ask me where i wanna go after all my A levels and NS and all that, i would always say i wanna go study medicine, and if possible, at Harvard. but i was thinking about what i really want, and i don't want to be a doctor.
i'll tell you what i want.
i want to be a musician. a full time musician.
sounds stupid and it probably is. see the thing about music, is that people have this preconceived notion that people can't survive in the Singaporean music scene. and guess what, it's probably true. apart from a few people like Dick Lee and Electrico, not many have been able to make a proper living by playing music in Singapore. and to add on, i play the drums. so i can't exactly do solo stuff. and besides, how many bands have actually made it big IN Singapore? apart from Electrico, the others aren't that big.
so when you actually tell people that you want to be a full time musician, the normal response you would probably get is "are you stupid? you cannot make it big playing music" and the likes. why? cause basically music in Singapore isn't a money making industry, and quite frankly, money is everything in Singapore.
but then when one weighs passion against money, i think it's quite obvious which one rules over the other. i will enjoy making music. i may not earn big bucks by playing music, but i will definitely enjoy it.
but then obviously, the social dogma sets in, and this is the very reason why i tell people i want to be a doctor. cause it's the "best" job available.
quite frankly, i know that it is impossible to make it big in the music scene in Singapore and i don't expect myself to. i also know that i would probably end up studying medicine, if i have the capability to do so that is, instead of playing in a band. i know it is stupid to try to work as a musician.
but i'll still try.
hope i can get something out of my dream
posted @ 11:05 AM |