this week has been quite ok.
had band prac the yesterday. couldn't really play well, and looking back, i guess it was because i was playing for myself. didn't really have God in my heart when i was playing, and i didn't really play to glorify His name. guess that was why i didn't play well.
but i guess today was ok. i prayed and just yeah, i tried to play for Him. i guess i did play for Him and i guess it turned out ok. praise be to God, not to me.
ah well. i have a geography test tomorrow and i'm not so confident. guess i need to go study more. hmm. i don't know. just that recently i haven't been doing too well. screwed up my physics test (D7), haven't been studying and all. really need to buck up if i am to get into JC. guess i'm kinda worried right now. i really should start worrying. secondary 4 is afterall an important year and i really cannot afford to fool around especially with the examinations looming. hmm. yeah. i do have to study.
but still, i'll make time to blog.
yeah. well i have been rather stressed recently. keep on having this feeling that someone is pulling strings and screwing up my life. guess that happens to people sometimes. but then i am one person who is rather ruled by emotions i guess. that can be a bad thing sometimes. or rather most of the time. oh well. life does seem a little shitty doesn't it. haha. maybe sometimes it does.
just really hope that i'll be ok. happens to me almost every exam. like last year, during the same time, i was so stressed that i just went crazy. hopefully it doesn't happen this year. but with all that's going on around me, perhaps it would happen again.
it's crazy, my life. i don't think anyone would want to be in my shoes now. real crazy.
perhaps sometimes i think too much. and when i think too much, i don't think properly. and i ramble. like now. in case you haven't noticed, i've been changing topics for the whole post.
guess i really am very stressed now.
damn i need a break.
somebody talk to me
posted @ 7:27 PM |