let see. today turned out fine. but shit just went down and every bloody thing seems so bloody screwed up now. i may have just lost a friend. yeah. guess what? Zach just blew up, told me to "do whatever f***ing suits you". and on top of that, i just pissed another person off. the two incidents are linked ok? hey guys. i'm really sorry. really.
shit. why does this have to bloody happen. why the hell do you have to choose between two people. i mean, yeah, i knew it would have come to this sooner or later. but hell. i want to avoid it, but i can't. and all this shit going down. i know i'm not making sense. and this isn't what i usually type. sorry guys. it's just.... shit man. i seriously don't know what to do now. i really don't. it's crazy really, what i'm facing now. kinda like the thing that makes you think "do i want to go to church this Sunday" kind of thing. look i know ok? i'm not making any sense. i'm just writing what comes to my mind ok?
i think i'm gonna burst any time man. so seriously, i don't know if i want to go to church this Sunday. it's complicated. and complicated is a bloody understatement. shit. it's crazy. i don't even know if i'm happy, or if i'm sad, or if i'm angry or whatever. all i know now is that shit went down, and i'm stuck in it ok?
look. Zach. sorry man. sorry it has to be this way. sorry that shit went down. i don't know why you blew up, but if i said something wrong, sorry man. really. i can't lose a friend. especially someone who i know is not going to be here for long.
and to you. look. choice is hard. and it just seems that i have to make a lot of these nowadays. like the choice i just made to tell Zach stuff. but really, me and Zach don't hide stuff from each other ok? we buddies we two. i guess what i'm trying to say is that i'm sorry ok? i know you told me before, but some things are complicated. look i'm sorry ok? i really am.
what should i do?
posted @ 11:31 PM |